i wrote this a little while after jon passed away. i love you big brother. HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY!
Im sitting. Its Silent. No movement. I feel a cool breaze. I hear a soft wisper. Clueless to what its saying, i follow it. The Breeze feels stronger, the wisper, more like a worl of wind. I keep following it. I find myself by worling trees and blazing sun. shinning through scatered clouds creating beautiful rays of colorfull ligth. I feel the wind picking up. Blowing through my hair. I wonder what happened, the dark cloudy day became beautifuly colorfull & wonderfull. But why all the sodden change. Who did this? I look up in the sky and all around my earth. Its my guarden angel. He's telling me somthing. He's telling me there are more than Dark & sad days. There are more things to be doing then hidding in a shell of a fack skin. You just have to be yourself, belive in your self, and keep your mind wide open to all the wonderfull nature God has created, i sudently realize that. I shout it out. The wind slowly slows down but the beauty is still there. i molt out of my shell and see the wonderfull world. Im free now, and forever, Thank you my Guarden angle!
-Kaitlyn Marie Barnes :D
JON!/ Kaitlyn Barnes (SISTER)
hey big bro. i realy miss you! please keep mommy and sister strong. please watch over and bless our family even though it would be way better with you here in it. i miss you. people are starting to say i look sound and act like you..and i thank that is alsome cause you were an amazing wounderfull cheeseball and not to menchion the best brother in the ENTIRE WORLD! and i miss you! ...i LOVE YOU BIG BROTHER!!
xoxo,
KAITLYN (The Day)
Fourth of July 2008 / Mom Hey Baby, I remember how you usedto love the fourth of July, and I used to love to see the excitement in your eyes as you watched the fireworks display. Now, I hate this holiday, anything with "fire" makes me weep, and all weekend, I have had to endure the sound of fireworks all around, and as you probably know, I have been a total mess. :( I just wish we could go back in time and change everything, and we would not have this fear and sadness, and most of all, we would have YOU, right here, enjoying every Holiday with us...the good ole days. I love you , my angel, and you are forever on my mind and in my heart....XOXO Mom
Can't wait / Arlene Shanaberger (Friend of Mom's ) Just finished looking at your photo album again. What a wonderful life Jon had - though it was short. God says this life is but a vapor - it's here and gone very quickly. Eternity in Heaven will be glorious - especially since we will be with our loved ones again and NEVER have to say GOOD BYE. We'll never have to worry about our children and never have to suffer heartbreak again. Praise the Lord that He will wipe every tear from our eyes. I look forward to that day !! Hallelujah and God bless your family.
Jonathan../ Kaitlyn Barnes (sister) Good Morning Big Brother..how is it up there? we all miss you...i just know that you have made over 100 cloud ramps to skate! and i bet you have landed them all...you are the best brother any sister could ever have..and im happy that you were mine and still are...i know your still around..opening and closing doors...shuting off our lights..making things fall off sheles..messing with radios and cars!..you were always joking about things like that and i can see you still do!...i just wanted to tell you how much i love & miss you..and that ill never forget you..mabie one day when im in heaven you can finaly teach me how to skate board! please help everyone to keep strong..i love you big brother<3
A beautiful angel! / Ginger Scott's Mom (Mom of another angel )
Loved looking at your life on earth. Betcha' you are dazzling your angel friends, too. Keep watching over your Mom. She misses you. Ginger-Scott's Mom
sorry for your loss / Shirley Baer (none) I am so sorry for the loss of your handsome son...I feel your pain and your grief..you are in my thoughts and prayers always.
Merry Christmas, 2007 You would be 19 now, but I know you would still be here getting your little sisters all wound-up for Christmas morning! I remember how you could never get to sleep on Christmas Eve, and it would frustrate you! LOL It just is not the same without you here, it is such a quiet and calm Christmas Eve, it seems that extra spark you would bring to every occasion is just not there anymore..... Oh, baby....we miss you so much, but I know you must be in the mostglorious surroundings, celebrating Jesus' Birthday....I hope you can send some angel hugs and kisses to us when you get the chance. You will be with us tomorrow, we will always remember your presence here. Merry Christmas, sweet angel.....
hey big bro / Kaitlyn Barnes (sister) Hey jon today is thanksgiving and i realy wish you were here! your were and still are the best big brother i have ever and no one no matter what can replace you!! thanksgiving & Christmas this year is going to be the hardest fo all of us..but its just starting to hit brooke that your gone..please help keep her strong and we will always keep you in our hearts and thoughts! i realy wish you were here to see me in 7th gread and in highschool..i know that if you were here when i grad. you would have frunt row! and now i can know that when i grad you will be walking right beside me when i go get that deploma.! i love you and thankyou soo much for the stinkbug!! i love you forever and ever and ever and ever and have a happy happy thanksgiving
To Jon, / Anon Poeople say it gets easier...and I guess in a way it has...yet in a way it feels worse. I feel like I understand less now what happened than I did before. I think I have been kidding myself into thinking I just havent seen you around not that your gone. I still remember the last time I saw you. Im so glad I didnt listen to them...they said come on lets go but I ran up and hugged you and told you how much I missed you. Everything seems to be getting blurrier and I dont like it. I remember every time together I just cant remember all the details like I used to. I cant help but stress my mind about what it would be like now... would we have grown apart? Gotten closer? Just stayed as close as we were? I cant even go on about the questions that go through my mind... One day I was thinking about you and I was like "I wonder if I think of him (them) everyday?" But...you cant really figure that out...cuzzz if at the end of the night your like ohhh I didnt think bout Jon...there ya go. You did think bout him! haha. I think thats funny. So now Ill be thinking of you and be like ok I thought of him today... I cant really explain it but its funny in my mind...and it made me stop bawling. You were such an amazing person (like everyone I can not stand saying were and here I am bawling again...) God I hate these moments when it really hits me. Well I just needed to talk and try and calm down. Although its not working. I can wait until the day I see you again...haha I can imagine it...I will just cry and smile at you... and at that point I will push everything aside and hold onto you and ask you why? And ask you all about what you think would have happened... oh well Im not getting into this... I love and miss you...
I luv you my angel.... / Mom Thank u my angel for watching over us the way u do.If it weren't 4 u and God, we wouldn't be so blessed. I luv u 4 ever...
My heart feels empty without you. / Granma Steiner (grandmother)
Jon, The days, weeks, months and years go by and nothing gets easier. If only we could go back. Life will never be the same again until we are together. We are just trying to hold the pieces together until then. We all lost a part of our heart when you were taken from us. I was such a fortunate grandmother to have a grandson like you and nothing will ever fill that void in my heart. I love you so and know we will see each other again. Until then, please keep watching over your family and friends. Love, Granma
Happy Birthday baby ! / Michelle Krantz (Family Friend ) A big ol' smile is what we are all used to seeing from you. It will be etched in our minds forever.......... You are sooooo missed, I can't even say how much. Your family needs you now. I know your probably tired of people asking you to take care of others, but, we know you can do it. Being so loving and caring and all. 19 on the 19th............ Too sad that your not here. You are still missed more than ever after 1 and a half years., Keep showing up at weird times and be in your Mom's and sisters hearts. minds, souls forever.... As you will be in theirs. Love ya Barnes. Krantz
what you have tought me while you were up there<3 / Kaitlyn Barnes (sister) Jon, you have tought me so much! But the one thing that means the most is that you tought me That insted of being selfish and mean, you should care for others because one day you might wake up and never see them again. you may never get to see there smile or receve there hugs and sloppy kisses on the cheak, you may never here there voice and spend time with this persion ever again. and you might not of had a chance to say good bye. i just want you to know that you ment so much to me and that i realy miss your sloppy kisses on the cheak, you worm hugs and our times togeather. I would do anything just to have you back again. just to see you smile once more, just to hug you once more. and i dont have you anymore and i wish i did so much and when i see my friends fighting with there sisters or brothers it makes me upset because thay dont kno how it would feel if they lost there brother/sister and i wish thay know what you tought me. i am so glad that you tought me that, now i have o be the oldest sibling here and take care of brooke, and i will take care and love her as you did us. I LOVE YOU BIG BRO!
Kaitlyn
RIP/ Courtney Crislip (Schoolmate) When I heard this, i was in complete shock. Immeadiatley it popped into my head that I knew Jon. He was in school with me and i just remember him being so funny, such a nice guy, and his smile just lit up the room. Now he's in heaven doing the same thing. -Courtney
My condolences for your loss / Ravnostic V. (none-found site through Jon's mom ) I'm so sorry for your tragic loss--it's not fair that a parent has to survive the loss of a child. Best wishes to you and yours.
Elementary School / Coleen Yazurlo (Schoolmate) I went to elementary school with Jon. He was in my fifth grade class. I don't remember much about fifth grade due to a serious illness, but I remember Jonathan was one of the only people that never treated me differently because I was sick. I feel horrible learning about the events over a year later, but I wanted to express my sorrow to his family and closer friends and let them know how much of a sweetheart he was and he will be watching over us all now
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend. Somewhere in this bitterness. If I'd stayed up with you all night, then I'd know how to save a life. RIP Jon Barnes-- May angels lead you in
You Are So Beautiful Jon / Janeane Bricker Brandons Mom Jon is a beautiful boy. He was just as cute as he grew older as he was when he was little. What a beautiful smile that could light a room. Please except my deepest heartfelt condolences. I lost my only son in July in an atv accident. So unfortunatly I do understand the pain. Shock and denial are just wearing off for me. Only God knows why we have been faced with the worst thing that could ever happen in our lifes and I'm praying God helps us threw it. If only I could fix things neither one of us would be here. Jon will always be loved and missed but he will never be forgotten. What a smile !!! Thank you for sharing your beautiful son with me.
Tributes and Condolences
A big ol' smile is what we are all used to seeing from you. It will be etched in our minds forever.......... You are sooooo missed, I can't even say how much. Your family needs you now. I know your probably tired of people asking you to take care of others, but, we know you can do it. Being so loving and caring and all. 
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